From LINDA BETH JARVIS
To: Rasa Von Werder
RASA: DEAR DAUGHTER, I HAVE CHANGED ALL YOUR PARTICULARS BECAUSE I CAN USE
THIS TO HELP OTHERS. WILL DO WHAT I CAN TO ANSWER.
Well one day I was in Canton and got locked up by a police man that was
having a bad day and attitude. There was also a warrant for my arrest for
another woman that did identity theft on me so I got locked up. At that time
I was going through the loss of my sister and a lot of other stressful
issues with my family that I won't go into now, let's just say that I was at
my end. I started praying and praying asking the Lord to help me. While I
was in there it just seemed that a lot of people disliked me even before
they met me and that brought on a different sorts of problems. I was the
type of female that has raised five kids as a single parent and also had one
pass away from SIDS and I truly had a rough time and a lot of tragedies
through out my life. I am now 36, I grew up in the church and was raised by
my grandparents and thought I had some pretty good values and even though I
was not a regular church goer I prayed often, taught my kids to love Gcod
and his values and always thanked the Lord for all of his wonderful
blessings. But I was still living my life on a worldly basis and weighing my
own spirit down with drama. In that jail there were some miraculous events
that took place
RASA: GOD ALLOWS 'EVIL' SUCH AS BEING ARRESTED TO BRING US TO GREATER GOOD.
THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME IN GOD'S COSMOLOGY, ACCIDENTS, ILLNESS AND
REVERSALS STOP US IN OUR TRACK, MAKE US THINK AND BRING CHANGES ABOUT.
and at one point I had asked the Lord to save my soul I wanted a change for
me and my kids.
RASA: SO YOU HIT ROCK BOTTOM BEFORE YOU WOULD SINCERELY TRY AND GET OUT.
Some ladies I had met begin to pray for me and tell me that SHE was trying
to kill me. I was like WHO and they just told me to be careful. So when the
pray ended they left the room and I was there by my self and begin to feel
like there was another being in the room and I felt like a shower of love
fill me it felt like it was cleansing me from inside out and it felt like no
other feeling I have ever felt and I heard someone whispering to me that I
was free and had been healed of everything that had held me down for so long
RASA: THIS IS CALLED 'CONVERSION', WHERE GOD'S GRACE ENTERS THE SOUL
PROFOUNDLY, AND FOR YOU, IT WAS BECAUSE THESE LADIES PRAYED FOR YOU. WHEN A
SOUL IS IN MORTAL SIN THEY ARE SPIRITUALLY DEAD AND CAN SCARCELY SUMMON THE
ENERGY TO PRAY FOR THEMSELVES, AND THAT IS WHY THOSE WHO ARE IN THE GRACE OF
NEED MUST PRAY FOR THOSE WHO ARE NOT, AS THOSE WHO ARE NOT MIGHT GO TO HELL
IF NO ONE PRAYED FOR THEM.
and to stay cleansed I needed to repent for my sins regularly and let the
Lord lead me this time around.
RASA: TO SEE OUR SIN'S, TO FINALLY BECOME AWARE OF THEM, IS CALLED
'CONVICTION,' AND IT SOMETIMES LEADS TO REFORMATION.
When I left out of that room it was like I was in a daze
RASA: THE GRACE OF GOD SOMETIMES PUTS US INTO A TRANCELIKE STATE. I HAVE
BEEN THERE MANY TIMES.
I felt so at peace and all of the enemies I had in the cell with me I could
not even feel any anger for anymore it's like peace had filled my entire
RASA: 'MY PEACE I GIVE TO YOU' OUR LORD SAID.
That night I had a dream and it was God talking to me and letting me know I
was blessed, in that dream I also felt like I had fainted because I truly
did not feel as if there was a living breathing God around, yes I had grown
up in the church but praying and all of that had really grown to be a ritual
that my grandparents had instilled in me and I just always knew to depend on
God he is there to lead us but I really had never experienced his actual
presence so it was hard to believe He was actually delighted for me to call
upon him, I believe I saw heaven because I never have seen something so
beautiful before in my life, at one point in my dream I also felt God crying
for the world and the churches in the world because of the way they can
sometimes treat people who are not at the same level as them or so they
RASA: THIS WAS A SHOCK AS YOU WERE NOT USED TO IT AND NOT TRAINED IN THE
LIFE OF UNION WITH GOD. THERE IS A WHOLE SCIENCE TO IT, WHICH I HAVE
STUDIED, AND SO WHEN I HAD MY EXPERIENCES I WAS NOT AS CONFUSED AS YOU, AND
I KNEW WHAT THEY WERE FROM READING THE LIVES OF THE SAINTS. YOU ASKED FOR
KNOWLEDGE AND THIS IS A GREAT HELP WHEN COMING CLOSER TO GOD.
I was asked why I had not asked to be saved until I was 30 years old and I
said because I did not want to ask God for help and I knew I was not living
right and truly had no concern of living right. I said Lord I just did not
want to be fake. I also said that I thought that I was such a bad person and
had did so much wrong in my life that I could not be forgiven. He let me
know that He is the judge and ruler over all and He would be the judge of me
RASA: WELL SAID. WE MUST NOT JUDGE OURSELVES, LET JESUS DO IT, AND HIS
He also asked what I desired most and I said knowledge because if I could
have the knowledge to live right and be one with God I want to know how.
RASA: IT SOUNDS TO ME LIKE THIS MOMENT, THIS NIGHT WHEN JESUS ASKED WHAT
YOU WANTED, COULD HAVE BEEN THE NIGHT OF YOUR BETROTHAL OR ENGAGEMENT,
BECAUSE WHEN I HAD MINE (1978), JESUS ASKED ME TO MAKE 3 REQUESTS, WHICH HE
WOULD GRANT. THOSE ARE ABOUT 90% FULFILLED, THERE'S JUST A BIT MORE TO GO
FOR COMPLETE FULFILLMENT.
Now the next day when I got out everything looked so much different to me
and the clouds were so beautiful, the grass was so green and the birds
chirping were so clear it was like the weight of life had been lifted off of
RASA: NOW THAT THE 'CLOAK OF DARKNESS' HAD BEEN LIFTED FROM YOU, YOU SAW
EARTHLY LIFE THE WAY GOD CREATED IT, AS BEAUTIFUL.
After that I kept having diff spiritual beings begin to lead me it was like
I was getting counseling without anyone else there I could feel their
presence and hear them but could not see them.
RASA: THIS HAPPENS WITH ALL HOLY SOULS INCLUDING MYSELF, AND ALL THE
SAINTS. WE HAVE ANGELS AND THE DEPARTED, THOSE IN HEAVEN, AND THOSE EVEN IN
PURGATORY SOMETIMES HELP US. EVEN THE HOLY LIVING ON RARE OCCASIONS GET
THROUGH TO US. AS A GURU, I APPEAR TO PEOPLE ON EARTH ALL THE TIME, AND
ALSO MINISTER TO PURGATORY.
There was a lady and a man with me at one point and I took a trip to Chicago
by myself so I could try and understand exactly what they wanted. They went
through every issue down my life's path that was still covered in my heart
with deep pain and brought them to the surface every sin I had ever
committed was brought to my face so that I could repent for each of them and
they were letting me know about myself deeply things I did not even know
myself until revealed to me.
RASA: WITHOUT CLEANSING AND CLOSURE, YOU CAN'T MOVE AHEAD.
After that I kept having dreams about a child being born, me marrying God,
me saving a lot of souls.
RASA: IT SOUNDS TO ME LIKE THE MYSTICAL CONVERSION HAPPENED ALL AT ONCE
WITH YOU, AS IT SOMETIMES DOES, QUITE SUDDENLY. YOU WERE BORN AGAIN, THEN
CLEANSED, BETROTHED, ALL CLOSE TOGETHER.
I also dreamt of my son that passed away from SIDS being with God and God
raising him as his own.
RASA: THIS HAPPENED AS WELL TO ME WITH THE SON I ABORTED BECAUSE OF A RAPE.
I SAW HIM AND AND HE TOLD ME HE LOVED ME, AND I RETURNED THIS. I HAVE MANY
TIMES PRAYED FOR ABORTED CHILDREN.
I also had a dream of having sex with God and I was just so embarrassed
because I was like how could I think of God like that and it grossed me out
but truly I do not know what this means fully because it is an experience I
will never forget and it was not filthy as in with a man. So when I read
your page on that subject I really am interested with how close I can get
with God and how better can I relate to him.
RASA: THIS IS CALLED AN 'ECSTATIC' DREAM AND IS NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF OR
EMBARRASSED ABOUT, AS ALL SAINTS HAD THESE EXPERIENCES. IT IS SIMPLY GOD
SHOWING YOU IN HUMAN LANGUAGE AND FEELING THAT GRACE IS BEING TRANSMITTED
INTO YOU WHICH WILL BEAR SPIRITUAL CHILDREN. IT IS VERY POWERFUL. THIS IS
'GOD APPEARING IN FORM' RATHER THAN SPIRIT, AND IT IS OF THE HIGHEST
CALIBER. READ THE SONG OF SONGS SOMETIMES, IT IS THE HIGHEST LOVE WITH GOD.
He gave me knowledge so abundantly I tried to write a lot of it down because
living of the world is truly a living hell.
RASA: TRUER WORDS WERE NEVER SPOKEN, THIS IS A PLACE OF GREAT SUFFERING.
I also felt like He was asking if I wanted to come home, it felt like he was
saying I did not have long to live and I said that I would love to but then
I started to think of my children and family and the pain they would feel
with out me and I told him that I truly loved him with all of my heart but
could I please go back to my kids I was like they have had enough pain
themselves and that would be selfish to leave them like that. He assured me
that once I was back that there still would be temptations and gave me
prayers to say to rebuke demons that got in my way.
RASA: GOD WAS WARNING YOU IT WOULDN'T BE EASY, IT NEVER IS. EVEN WHEN WE
ARE SAVED AND MYSTICALLY MARRIED, (WHICH COULD HAVE BEEN YOUR SEX DREAM)
DOES NOT MEAN LIFE GETS EASY. THERE IS KARMA TO PAY, AND THERE ARE OTHER
PEOPLE ALL AROUND US WHO HURT US. THIS IS THE VALLEY OF TEARS, A PLACE OF
TRIAL. WE STRUGGLE EACH DAY, WE FIGHT EACH DAY AGAINST SIN AND PEOPLE AND
Once things kind of got back to normal I fell into a deep depression and had
to fight the demon of guilt ,sadness and suicide of course with the Lord's
help this time and I came through I lost everything and me and my kids are
now starting over I was even put into a mental hospital by family because I
was talking about God too much and when I said he talked to me they truly
knew I had flipped my lid
RASA: THE WORLD DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THE SPIRITUAL PLANE, AND IT IS TOO BAD
THEY DID THAT TO YOU. PSYCHOLOGISTS MOSTLY DO NOT BELIEVE IN GOD OR
MYSTICAL EXPERIENCE, THEY BELIEVE GOD IS IN THE IMAGINATION AND SPIRITUAL
EXPERIENCES ARE HALLUCINATIONS.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE, MOST OF THE SAINTS WERE PERSECUTED AND IN MY LIFE, I AM
CONSTANTLY CALLED CRAZY AND WEIRD BECAUSE I SPEAK OF MY VISIONS. THAT GOES
WITH THE TERRITORY. BUT IF WE EDUCATE PEOPLE ENOUGH, THEY UNDERSTAND THAT
THERE IS A SPIRITUA, METAPHYSICAL, NON MATERIAL WORLD THAT IS MORE REAL THAN
THIS ONE, THIS HERE IS ONLY A SHADOW OF THE TRUE LIFE.
I was admitted and now a year later I am fine
RASA: BY YOU SAYING YOU ARE FINE IT IS NOT CLEAR TO ME DID YOU REALLY GET
MENTALLY ILL? THAT IS ALSO NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF, IT HAPPENS TO THE BEST
OF PEOPLE AND DOES NOT MEAN YOUR EXPERIENCES WERE NOT REAL. SAINTS CAN GET
MENTALLY ILL ALSO, HAVE BREAKDOWNS, ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION. WE ARE HUMAN
AND DIVINE, OUR HUMANITY SUFFERS. JESUS EVEN SAID ON THE CROSS,
'MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?'
but still have many questions because I know it was real can you help me to
understand what happened to me. There is a lot more to the story but this is
just a small piece of what's on my heart today and I hope you can help me
discover how to better relate on a spiritual level.
RASA: ON THE SPIRITUAL LEVEL, YOU REACHED OUT TO GOD AND GOD MANIFESTED FOR
YOU AND CASES LIKE THIS ARE REPLETE IN THE SPIRITUAL LITERATURE, MILLIONS OF
THEM. WE LIVE IN THE FLESH AND THEN WE REACH OUT AND THE POWER OF GOD
TOUCHES US, AND WE ARE SAVED, AND WE BEGIN THE JOURNEY HOME, DEEP INTO THE
CENTER, CORE OF OUR EXISTENCE, THE GOD THAT IS INSIDE US AND IN ETERNITY.
THE ENTIRE WORLD CHANGES WHEN WE ARE SAVED, AND IT UNFOLDS TO US IN A NEW
WAY COMPLETELY, A HEAVENLY WAY. BUT SINCE WE ARE STILL HERE ON EARTH WE
SUFFER AND HAVE MANY TRIALS, BUT IT IS BEARABLE AND SWEET COMPARED TO WHEN
GOD IS NOT PRESENT, WHEN IT IS HELL. ONLY THOSE WHO ARE SAVED CAN EVEN
THINK ABOUT SAVING OTHERS, AND THIS GRACE THAT YOU HAVE CAN BE TRANSMITTED
TO OTHERS WHO ARE IN THE SAME BOAT YOU ARE IN. THINK ABOUT THAT NOW, IF YOU
ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO WORK, GOD ALWAYS CAN USE A FEW MORE MINISTERS. (RASA)
God Bless You,