Here is my report for July 28 "07
Report Saturday 28th
Long period of mantras of obedience and loyalty to MotherRasa/God. Then lot
of prayer to MotherGod for her to help MotherRasa and protect her and give
her strength for the time ahead. Then I was kneeling before you and you were
placing 3 rings on my fingers and you were saying:
"These three rings are rings of complete loyalty, obedience and honesty to
your MotherRasa. These rings are
different from others as these are permanent which means that you can never
take them off. This means you
are now forever the devotee of MotherRasa."
I said I was very happy and would work hard to be worthy of MotherRasa. I
was also feeling this was a big step for me on my way to MotherGod.
Got Category problem sorted and now am doing:
1. Sorting through all lists
2. Adding Rasa/Kellie to all categories Mother gave me and others which may
3. Working more on the Blog
4. Researching papers
Tired today as a 3 day local festival started - loud music till 03:00am
Excerpt from the WTAG site under "Beatific Vision" part 3
HOW FILTHY WITH SIN ARE YOU?
There is one way to find out. It is called "examination of conscience."
When's the last time you did it? Probably didn't seem important to you. You
had bills to pay, the house to clean, tv to watch, people to talk to and so
on. You had time to talk about OTHER PEOPLE'S SINS BUT NO TIME TO THINK
"It's an evil world we live in," you said.
"Did you hear about the man down the road who abused his kids, went to jail,
and now he's hanging out with a twelve-year old?"
How about Fred? He better straighten out. His friend says he drank TWO CASES
OF OF BEER OVER THE WEEKEND!
What a loser! He's had his license taken away many times, and he's drinking
and driving again. Will he ever learn? What's wrong with him?
Did you hear about Guda Jones? She left her husband AND FOUR CHILDREN AND
WENT OFF WITH ANOTHER MAN! She'll pay! The selfishness!.....
etc. etc. etc.
Now you and your gab mate have covered the sins of the world and you haven't
helped the world or its sins. I am not saying you can't discuss these things
because it isn't sin to discuss, just to judge and condemn. I myself am the
first to admit I've done it a lot and I think I have stopped.
Here is a revealing and releasing fact:
When you face The Lord on judgment day, He will not ask you about anyone BUT
YOURSELF. You are not reasonable for the sins of anyone else but yours.
Therefore, spend more time worrying about your sins than those of others.
You cannot control the behavior of others, but you can control your own. If
God can't change them, albeit slowly and laboriously, why do you worry about
Here's the rub: You say you're not as bad as those. Let's take a look. First
off, you don't know if you are as bad as them because you don't know what
kind of background they came from. They may be disadvantaged, challenged, or
mentally and emotionally twisted through pain of their own. God alone knows
all that. Ask yourself this:
AM I ENVIOUS OF THOSE WHO HAVE MORE THAN I?
FOR THE WOMAN - DO I ENVY MY NEIGHBOR LADY WHO MARRIED RICH? SHE LIVES IN A
MANSION AND HAS NICE CARS. SHE CAN AFFORD ALL SORTS OF THINGS, INCLUDING
SENDING HER CHILDREN TO PRIVATE SCHOOLS AND THEN GOOD COLLEGES. DO I IMPUTE
UPON HER ALL SORTS OF SINS, LIKE "I KNOW HOW SHE GOT HIM."
DO I IMAGINE SHE'S LAZY BECAUSE SHE HIRES SERVANTS TO CLEAN AND DO YARD
If you have such thoughts inside you then you are FILTHY WITH SIN.
TO THE MAN: THERE ARE TWO BEAUTIFUL YOUNG WOMEN LIVING NEARBY, AS ROOMATES.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY DO. BUT YOU THINK THEY ARE PROBABLY PROSTITUTES,
AND YOU WANT TO GET SOME. IF THEY ARE LOW AND DIRTY ANOUGH TO DO THAT FOR A
JOB, YOU MIGHT AS WELL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE SITUATION. AND NATURALLY, IF
THEY ARE HOOKERS, THEY ARE SLUTS, BUT YOU, THE CUSTOMER... YOU'RE OK.
If you harbor thoughts such as these, you are FILTHY WITH SIN.
TO ANY PERSON: YOU HAVE HEARD ABOUT A BOMBER WHO HAS KILLED A NUMBER OF
PEOPLE. YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THE CIRCUMSTANCES, BUT YOU THINK THIS MAN
WILL SURELY ROT IN HELL. AND I HOPE THEY EXECUTE HIM AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
If you harbor such thoughts, you are FILTHY WITH SIN. Why? Because only God
knows who goes to Hell and who goes to Heaven, and unless God reveals to you
by the Gift of Revelation where he is going, you have no right to assume.
Think about CHARITY. What is it? It's a type of love. It's compassion,
empathy and generosity. How many times have you SINNED AGAINST CHARITY in
your mind? How many times have you thought ill of someone based on
appearances? How many times have you assumed a person of a different race is
a lowlife? How many times have you assumed beautiful, sexy women are
immoral? How many times have you thought rich people are greedy, heartless
thieves? How many times have you thought the poor are lazy bums? Or that
they are poor because they don't want to work? How many times have you
thought those who are accused of crime are guilty before they are proven?
How many times have you assumed that teenagers are up to no good?
All these assumptions and snap judgments are against charity, and yet they
are human nature. Human nature is not charitable. When you hit the point of
Perfection, you will not harbor these thoughts.
There's more. Did you every imagine that some of the evil that comes upon
you could be due to your own karma? Unimaginable? You're one of those GOOD
PEOPLE THAT BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO....You are so busy in your self
righteousness, keeping a black book of others' sins, you forgot to examine
NO HATE OF ENEMIES?
NO GLUTTONY? (I mean, do you PIG OUT regularly on steak and ice cream, and
give your dog Dad's dry?
NO CRUELTY TO ANIMALS? (Do you eat the pork of the pig who was strung up,
had it's throat cut while living, and think nothing of it?)
NO PRIDE? (Do you get angry when people get in front of you in line? When
they ignore you? When they put you down? When they reject you?)
NO VANITY? (You are fifty pounds overweight, sir. But you imagine yourself
to be a big, muscular he-man like John Wayne or Arnold. People see you as an
older, balding heavy man, but you see yourself as virile and sexy...all in
your mind.) You - lady - think people all like you. But they only like you
for what you have. You think people admire you for your intelligence, but
they only listen to you while they are doing your hair and nails, or laying
your carpet. In your mind, you're a great conversationalist, but as soon as
the work is over, the person you hired leaves. They don't hang around to
hear more of your talk. But you WANT TO BELIEVE people admire and like you
because it's VANITY...Sin strikes in the most innocent of places.
NO RESENTMENT? Resentment is a sort of grudge for wrong done against you. No
grudge? Then why complain and repeat over and over what they have done to
NO GREED? What happened when the relative died? Did you scramble along with
everyone else to MAKE SURE YOU GOT EVERY PENNY YOU COULD EVEN IF YOUR POOR
RELATIONS, WHO COULD NOT AFFORD A LAWYER, GOT NOTHING?
NO CONTEMPT? How many people have you looked down on? How many have you been
superior to, in your own mind?
NO LAZINESS? Male - how many hours have you sat in front on the TV, couch
hero style, watching sports, imagining, like Walter Mitty, you are the hero?
Why don't you be a hero and at least during the commercials, take out the
garbage, do a little dusting or vacuuming? (Some people, when they watch tv,
do housework during the commercials, or other chores. They even pray the
rosary, and after a long movie, have managed to say three rosaries for
Female - how many soap operas have you consumed? How many romantic, ditsy
movies? You watch those movies like men were gods and that special He-Man is
just around the corner. Any minute now, he'll find out you're a goddess and
sweep you off your feet. What nonsense is generated in your mind, when you
should be doing something useful.
Here I am not even talking about heinous sins and crimes, just the average
John and Jane next door who are "nice people." In this examination of
conscience, I am taking the mask off nice people.
Please be aware that YOU ARE NOT AS NICE AS YOU THINK YOU ARE. YOU MIGHT
EVEN STINK IN THE NOSTRILS OF GOD.
WHAT IS FILTH OF THE SOUL?
When souls go to Purgatory, they are forgiven of their sins. They repented.
If they had not, they'd be in Hell. Then why don't they go straight to
Heaven, as the Protestants affirm? (Don't trust Martin Luther, the man who
in the 16th century started the Protestant Reformation. He was an evil man -
not because he stood up to the Catholic Church, but because during the
revolts, he said that anyone who killed a peasant...the poor...did right. He
wrote a vile book against the Jewish people making them out to be evil folk.
He himself couldn't keep his pants on and married a nun, thereby breaking
the vows of two people consecrated to God...And get this: Martin Luther
CHANGED THE WORDING OF THE BIBLE WHERE IT SAID FAITH IS NECESSARY FOR
SALVATION. HE ADDED TO FAITH, FAITH ALONE IS NECESSARY FOR SALVATION. BY
ADDING THIS ONE WORD, ALONE, HE CHANGED THE DIRECTION OF CHRISTIANITY. IT'S
OK THAT HE STOOD UP TO THE CATHOLIC CHURCH, BECAUSE IT WAS EVEN MORE CORRUPT
THAN IT IS NOW. BUT SOME OF THE THEOLOGY HE ESPOUSED IS AWFUL... Don't rely
on this Putz for the truth about anything.)
The reason people do not go straight to Heaven is because of THE FILTH OF
THEIR SOULS. You read all that I wrote about examination of conscience. Most
people are unaware and in denial of these sins. And so, they don't even
repent. They might repent of abortions, or stealing money, or raping
someone, etc., but these so-called little sins (which are not little) they
don't even recognize. All your sins - those repented and un repented, when
forgiven, MUST BE PAID FOR. This is called the KARMA of the sins. But as I
said, most people don't even admit their sins. So they stay dirty. How to
explain filth of the soul?
Imagine a globe, a sphere, which is supposed to be luminous. It has light
inside it, but it has a lot of spots within it that are gray, which must be
dissolved. Around this sphere is luminous space, which has no spots of any
kind. It is pure light. You can see the spotty globe as it has darkish
spots. Because of the purity of the light around it; because this light is
so strong, this light gets into that globe, and slowly but surely, all the
darkness in that globe is dissolved. The globe is the soul in Purgatory, and
the Light around it is God, and the light of God by grace dissolves darkness
within the soul. While it's being purified, the soul is obviously aware that
it is not like God - that God is absolute purity while it, the soul, is not.
As it waits, it realizes it cannot be happy unless the cleansing is complete
and the wait seems terribly long. While you are in this Purgatory your
understanding grows. I've ministered to plenty souls there and know some of
what they feel. They know how beautiful and wonderful God is. God is the #1
lover who ever existed. God can't wait to take you in His/Her arms and
consume you with Love and Infinite Ecstasy. But it can't happen till those
spots are removed!
Some words on beauty - what is it? What makes one beautiful or ugly? It is
this and only this: THE GRACE IN THE SOUL. I've ministered to souls in
Purgatory a lot, and the closer they are to being clean, which means more
grace in the soul, the more beautiful they are. At the end they are
SPLENDID. Understand that your beauty on earth is the same. The more grace
in your soul, the more beautiful you are. Physical beauty is only a symbol
and it will soon pass. Work for the beauty that is eternal.
Rasa Von Werder