LETTER TO A FRIEND ON NEW STATE AND MATRIARCHAL PLANS

GOING VERY WELL. WILL WRITE ON IT SOON. SOME MENTAL/EMOTIONAL
'SETTINGS' IF YOU WILL, HAVE TO BE ADJUSTED. ONE CAN BE IN A POSITION
TO RECEIVE OR BE IN THE STATE (MYSELF) AND YET THE STATE DOES NOT GET
'PUT IN' FOR LACK OF 'ADJUSTMENT OF THE SETTINGS,' WHICH SETTINGS ARE
IN THE MIND MOSTLY. THIS IS THE PART TO BE WORKED ON AND I AM DOING WELL.
I HAVE CHANGED THESE THINGS - ENCOURAGED BY SWAMI, I HAVE PULLED IN,
BACK INTO MYSELF, THE WORSHIP OF JESUS AND MARY AND ALL OTHER DIETIES,
LIKE AN OCTAPUS PULLING IN ITS TENTACLES. THESE WORSHIP OF GOD AS
IMAGE ARE PROJECTIONS OF GOD WITHIN (IN MOST CASES, NOT ALL).....
ALSO STOPPED SAYAING MASS AND ROSARIES (A BIG PLUNGE FOR ME, REQUIRING
COURAGE) IN ORDER TO FOCUS ON THE GOD WITHIN, NOT TO FORMALLY
MEDITATE, BUT BEGIN TO GALVANIZE ALL ENERGIES FOR THE GOD WITHIN. IT
IS A PULLING IN AND BEING MORE FREE. WHAT IS DIFFERENT BETWEEN MYSELF
AND THE 'NORMAL' PERSON IS THE NORMAL PERSON MUST STILL UNDERGO YEARS
OF DISCIPLINE TO BEGIN TO REACH THIS STATE. I HAVE ALREADY DONE THAT.
I AM DEAD TO 'SELF' OR EGO (ALTHOUGH THIS IS HARD TO RECOGNIZE FROM
THE OUTSIDE. IT IS THE INNER STATE THAT IS GENUINE, NOT THE
PERSONALITY. PEOPLE GET MIXED UP BY YOUR PERSONALITY.) BEING DEAD TO
SELF, LIKE SWAMI SAID, ONE DOES NOT HAVE TO DO SACRAMENTS AND RITUALS,
BUT SIMPLY WORSHIP GOD WITHIN - WHICH IS WHAT ALL THE GREAT YOGIS DID.
ALTHOUGH THEY DID SOMETIMES SWERVE BACK AND FORTH (WHICH IS OK) BUT
THE POINT IS, I DO NOT HAVE TO TEND TO OUTSIDE RELIGIOUS THINGS. I CAN
BE FREE.
THIS IS A WHOLE WORLD OF RELEASING, LETTING GO, LOSING FEAR, LOSING
THE NEED TO SUFFER (A STRONG POINT WITH ME AS JOINING WITH JESUS'
REDEMPTIVE SUFFERINGS) AND ALSO NOT LETTING PEOPLE AFFECT YOU.
(CONSTANT ATTACKS AND REJECTIONS ON THE INTERNET COULD MAKE YOUR HAIR
GO WHITE.....BUT IT ISN'T)
NOW THESE 'ADJUSTMENTS' ARE BEING FINE TUNED DAILY. YES, I AM
ADJUSTING. IT IS AN ATTITUDE, A POINT OF VIEW, A PERSPECTIVE AND A
MENTAL STATE WHICH ULTIMATELY AFFECTS THE EMOTIONS, BODY, EVERYTHING.
IT IS A RELEASE FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD WHICH DOES NOT MAKE THE OUTSIDE
WORLD GO AWAY, BUT NOW, ONE IS LIVING WITHIN IT WITHOUT REACTING AS AN
EGO-DRIVEN OR SUBJECTIVE-FEELING PERSON. ONE'S MIND/FEELINGS ARE FREE
FROM THE WORLD AND PEOPLE, LIKE SITTING IN ANAOTHER PLACE, IN THE
SPIRIT OBVIOUSLY, IN THE GOD WITHIN.
NOW THERE ARE MANY TERMS BEING THROWN AROUND AND THIS I COULD DISCUSS
WITH YOU. FOR INSTANCE, THEY ARE SAYING THIS IS NOT 'WITNESS
CONSCIOUSNESS' BUT SOMETHING BEYOND IT. I AM SO BEWILDERED BY ALL
THEIR TERMS, ACCUSATIONS, CRITICISMS AND SO ON, THAT I AM SORT OF DONE
WITH THEM - THE OUTSIDE GURUS, AND SIMPLY LISTENING TO GOD WITHIN.
THEY COULD KILL YOU WITH THEIR TERMS. AND THERE ARE ALL DIFFERENT YOGA
DISCIPLINE TERMS AND BUDDHIST TERMS AND ONE'S MIND COULD REALLY GET
GRATED BY ALL THIS CONFUSION. SO I AM STAYING ABOVE IT. I ALSO DO NOT
NEED THE CRITICISM THAT WAS HEAPED UPON ME BY HOLY SOULS AND REALIZE
THAT EVEN HOLY SOULS CAN HURT ME. JUST STAY AWAY FROM THEM ALL AND LET
THE COMPASS WITHIN ME STEER ME RIGHT. THAT IS MY REPORT SO WHAT SAY YOU?
DID YOU READ MY FIVE ARTICLES ON WORSHIP AND HUNGER FOR MOTHERGOD?
I AM ON A NEW TANGENT NOW. WE ARE MOVING INTO MATRIARCHY BIG TIME. GOD
GAVE ME A REVELATION ON THE 14TH OF SEPT.VERY IMPORTANT.:
'I AM THE LIVING MATRIARCH SENT BY GOD TO SHOW A WAY TO THE WORLD.'
I ASKED GOD ABOUT MATRIARCH AND GURU AND GOD SAID,
'A GURU CAN BE A GURU OF ANYTHING. YOU ARE A GURU AND A MATRIARCH. YOU
ARE THEIR MOTHER. GURU IS A WORD DENOTING MATERNITY OR PATERNITY
TOWARD CHILDREN, IN SPIRIT. AND SO, YOU ARE BOTH GURU AND MATRIARCH.
YOU WERE SENT TO EARTH FOR THIS. BE CALM AND HAPPY!'
I SENSE A NEW BEGINNING. AFTER ALL, PEOPLE STARTED COMING TO ME WHEN I
PUT OUT THE SHINGLE FOR GURU. AND NOW, BEING GURU/MATRIARCH, EVEN MORE
ARE COMING. WE HIT RECORD HIGHS ON THE SITE AND ARE GAINING ON THE
YAHOO GROUPS. 2,166 PEOPLE ON WTAG ONE DAY! ON BOTH SITES, 2000 PEOPLE
A DAY AVERAGE. SOON IT WILL BE 50,000 TO 60,000 PEOPLE A MONTH. NOT
BAD FOR A LADY WHO ONLY STARTED GETTING HER WINGS AROUND APRIL THIS
YEAR! OF COURSE, THIS TRAFFIC CAME WITH WORK. BY HAVING A GREAT SITE
AND ALSO POSTING CONSTANTLY. JUST JOINED AND POSTED TO 500 GROUPS IN
ONE WEEK! AND GETTING VOLUMES OF MAIL AND ALL SORTS OF NEW PEOPLE,
INCLUDING WOMEN.
THE WOMEN ARE THE HARDEST TO GET ALONG WITH AND I AM WONDERING IF IT
IS NECESSARY FOR ME TO CONCERN MYSELF WITH THEM THAT MUCH. I HAVE TO
JUST REALYZE MOST OF MY CONSTITUENTS WILL BE MEN AND RELAX. IT IS THE
MEN THAT ARE PUSHING ME ALL THE TIME TO GET WOMEN - BECAUSE IT IS THEY
WHO WANT MORE WOMEN. SO LET THEM GET THE WOMEN AND BRING THEM TO ME!
MUCH LOVE, RASA