RASA SEX/LOVE REPORT 9 28 08

Important Experience Concerning Someone I Love from Afar - Metaphysical/ 
Spiritual Union Occurred

RASA SEX/LOVE REPORT 9 28 08
(1) I become ONE with a Sensuous Nubian God (2) I join a new dating 
service (3) Michael has a Big Dream, he starts a Blog I've been wishing 
for! To archive our Precious Newsletters SO SEARCH ENGINES CAN READ OUR 
STUFF!

OK as all of you know I am looking for Yummy males, most of whom are dark, 
and I am a fussy bitch so I look through hundreds of images before I find 
one.

My collection is the most beautiful and sensuous males I can find, they are 
all 10's and 12's even, they are over the top. I try to get to know them, 
but it ain't easy, as guys like that must be in great demand.

I pride myself for the fact that some of them answer, we exchange steamy 
fantasies, I did snag two recently and am making plans with several others. 
I don't get all that I want immediately - hey win a few lose a few, easy 
cum, easy go, easy cum. For every one I lose, more show up, it never ends. 
I console myself with the memory that when I was in my 20's I had perhaps 
EVEN MORE hardships, rejections and broken heart than I do now, I knew 
little in those days, my taste was not as good, I could not control the guys 
like I do now, and often chose the wrong ones entirely, did not know how to 
deal with relationships like I do now. My track record is I am probably 
batting 1,000 in spite of my age, am doing very well indeed for an "old fox" 
who is "naughty but nice."

Recently I came upon one that is so magnificent that he erased the other 
ones from my mind, you know, like a bright light that eclipses all the other 
lights? I am sure he "don't know what he's got" because how could he look at 
himself objectively? I am the one who is seeing him as compared with say a 
thousand other guys who are good looking - but right now, he has beat them 
all, even though the others are formidable. My collection you could say is 
the International Olympics of the "Masculine Babes." They are all absolute 
tops in the world, but like only one gets the Three Gold Medals.

I do tend to "get into" my work and projects, and on the night of Sept. 25, 
as I lay in my bed, I was composing the tome to my macho hunk, and thinking 
what I could write to get him my way. I had tried three angles with mixed 
success, the best one got a mental response, I heard him say,

"FUCK YOU"

It's a start.

In this mind walk I asked Da Man a host of questions. It went like this:

"What do I have to do to get through the Iron Doors between us?"

(1) Is there an Iron Door of fear like who is this stranger?

(2) Is there an Iron Door that you are in a relationship 
already?

(3) Is there an Iron Door that says "I am a Gigolo, you have to 
pay me"?

(4) Is there an Iron Door that says, "You are white, I don't like white 
women?"

(5) Is there an Iron Door of distance, that says "you are too far away to 
contact"?

I envisioned myself pushing aside the Iron Doors between us, seeing them 
thick and huge, but I face the problems. I went over this again and again, 
including the Gigolo part, trying to figure what I would have to pay him, 
having the fear he'll demand a Ferrari.

Desperate women do desperate things. I quickly evaluated economics, what 
price for a "night of sin", what I could humiliate myself to do for what I 
wanted, and could I actually enjoy a sensual act I had to pay for - in case 
I could, what would be the rate for a Living Doll in these days of 
inflation? Like a half week or full week salary? (haha babe, the dollar has 
lost 40% of its value since 2001 or something like that so as the cock 
rises, cost rises). All this went through my mind again and again.

I went to sleep for a couple hours. Then I awoke, and I heard a nebulous 
voice, in my head, not audibly. This voice called out to me,

"MAMMA"

It was like the voice was suspended in space, but within this earth, sort of 
surrounded by white blankets specked with green spots, and I had to answer 
it, and I did answer it, not even knowing who was calling me,

"YES? WHAT IS IT?"

As soon as I answered I "made contact" in the following way, and it was 
fascinating and mysterious.

The voice, which I saw suspended above the earth, surrounded by thick 
blankets, kind of like clouds, specked with green, turned into an area 
surrounded by black, with nothingness around it, the Presence of the person 
calling me "Mamma" was inside the Center of this Blackness, a Secret place, 
a Sanctum Sanctorum, I suspect, the Epicenter of this human Being reaching 
out to me.

As I perceived this New Reality or Vision of this Person, he spoke to me 
like this:

"I AM IN YOU, YOU ARE IN ME, WE ARE ONE."

I became curious as to who this man was - even though I could not picture 
his voice I knew he was a man - and it was shown to me it was Da Man I was 
"in love" with - how ASTOUNDING!

He further explained to me the following:

"I need the kind and gentle love of a Mother...I have no teeth" (he is 
therefore an infant before the first set of teeth move in, he is nursing or 
drinking from a bottle.)

There was not much TALK after that, but the POWER of this contact was 
SUBLIME, the REALITY of UNION with this man, where he and I became ONE - He 
being the Child, myself the Mother, like REBIRTHING. I became his new 
Mother - in a series of contact BY LETTER ONLY with a man who did not even 
reach out to me or respond, except for when I heard him say "fuck you." And 
yet, the letters I wrote reached his heart and mind, touched him, enough 
that he CALLED OUT TO ME, I answered, and the moment I answered, WE BECAME 
ONE.

THIS WAS BETTER THAN SEX. In sex, frequently, the hearts, minds and souls 
do not unite, if but a tiny bit, the usual being lots of body touch, not so 
much anything else, however good it feels, you do not become completely ONE. 
This UNION was PERFECT as we did become One, and so, it was BETTER THAN SEX.

I WAS EXHILARATED, basking in the joy of being One with this man I love, it 
was awesome.

He said, as a parting shot,
"Good luck in your hunting."

This statement goes with my profile, where the thesis I wrote goes "Diana, 
the Goddess of the hunt and love, looking to pierce the stag" I.E., the 
older powerful woman looking for the beautiful young male.

Then this was said,
"If we do not meet on earth, I will see you in Heaven."

Now I must tell you the two e mails that "got through" to him. There were 
half a dozen sent, went unread, but these two were read.

The first was flippant, declaring that "I am your new Mamma" and I spoke in 
no uncertain terms how I would dominate him - raunchy stuff, very 
aggressive. This hit a nerve, and when I heard from him the "fuck you."

Now the next one also that he did read (my service lets me know which ones 
are read) went like this and I think this is even further significance of 
how I did get through to him (this was sent to 50 males on my dating 
service):

THE IMPORTANCE OF SKIN

"BEAUTY IS ONLY SKIN DEEP"...RIGHT NOW I'M THINKING OF DARK SKIN, IF YOU CAN 
"PASS FOR WHITE" THEN YOU CAN'T TURN ME ON - BE MOCHA, COFFEE WITH CREAM, 
EBONY, ANYTHING BUT WHITE....I WANT THAT SKIN AGAINST MINE, PERSONAL CONTACT 
IS WHAT I NEED. I WANT TO FEEL IT, SMELL IT, TASTE IT.

THEY SAY "LOOK AT THE CHARACTER-LOOK INSIDE" BUT RIGHT NOW I'M NOT GIVING IQ 
TESTS, NOR LOOKING FOR DEACONS IN MY CHURCH, THIS IS EMOTIONAL HUNGER.

"DON'T LOOK FOR JUST SEX" WHAT IS "SEX?" THE ABILITY TO TOUCH ONE ANOTHER 
DECIDES IF WE'LL BE HAPPY OR DEPRESSED, RELAXED OR ANXIOUS, COMMIT SUICIDE 
OR KEEP LIVING, NEED DRUGS/ ALCOHOL OR NOT. SERATONIN, OXYTOCIN, ARE "FEEL 
GOOD" HORMONES THAT GET ACTIVATED AT CERTAIN TIMES, INCLUDING TIMES OF PAIN 
& PLEASURE. WE NEED STIMULATION THROUGH TOUCH...SOMETIMES WE DON'T TOUCH 
PHYSICALLY, BUT TALKING, LOOKING, IS A "REMOTE TOUCH", IT HELPS. SOLITARY 
CONFINEMENT IS TORTURE...THAT' S WHAT LETTERS, IMAGE EXCHANGE & WEBCAMS ARE 
FOR...SEND IMAGES OF BEAUTIFUL YOU TO:

RASA@WOMANTHOUARTGO D.COM

In these two letters, in the first, where I purport to be his "New Mamma" 
and dominating him psychologically, I establish what kind of a woman I am - 
not a passive woman, but one who appears more Maternal, albeit aggressively 
maternal. This hits a nerve, but it gets through - which is important. If 
you hit a nerve, you're in.

But the next letter is compassionate and explanatory, speaking of EMOTIONAL 
HUNGER, the touch, smell, taste that one gets FROM MOTHER IN THE NUTRITIONAL 
BOND and the RESULTS OF THE LACK OF SUCH BONDING, THE EMOTIONAL HUNGER, THE 
RESULTS OF EMOTIONAL HUNGER OUTLINED WITH ITS DIRE CONSEQUENCES!

This has been an extremely successful letter I bandied about, but I knew it 
to be of quality, explaining much in the realm of emotions, something we are 
all a part of on dating services.

Now I will interview Mother God, the Power within me, as to the meaning and 
substance of this vision:

Rasa: Mother God, please tell me in plain and simple terms what happened 
here?

MOTHER GOD: HE CALLED OUT TO YOU AS A MOTHER, HE WANTED YOU. HE SUBMITTED, 
JUST AS A DEVOTEE DOES TO HIS GURU. THE DEVOTEE/ GURU RELATIONSHIP IS A 
CHILD/ PARENT ONE, IT IS THE SAME THING, REALLY. IT IS BASED ON THE 
MATERNAL/ CHILD BOND. HE WAS ABLE TO DISCERN THAT YOU ARE A POWERFUL 
SUPERNATURAL FORCE AS WELL AS A PHYSICAL PRESENCE. HE READ THE PROFILE, THE 
THING ABOUT DIANA. THERE YOU EXPLAIN THE SUPERNATURAL EXCHANGE, THE SHAKTI, 
THE HUNTING FOR THE BEAUTIFUL MALE.
HE UNDERSTOOD IT. HE UNDERSTOOD, AND HE SUBMITTED.

Rasa: The "I have no teeth" gives me his age, but is there any more 
detailed explanation of why this is given me?

MOTHER GOD: HE WANTS YOU TO KNOW HE IS AN INFANT, VERY SMALL - THIS IS HIS 
POINT OF SUBMISSION OR NEED, HE HAS REDUCED HIMSELF, MADE HIMSELF SMALL OR 
GONE BACK INTO HIS INFANCY TO CALL YOU TO HIM AT THIS POINT. IT'S LIKE 
THIS,
"MOTHER, IT IS HERE THAT I CALL UPON YOU, HERE IS MY NEED. I AM VERY SMALL, 
NOT WEANED, BE MY MOTHER HERE, COME TO ME HERE, RECEIVE ME HERE, IN FACT, IT'S 
ALREADY DONE. YOU ARE IN ME, I AM IN YOU, WE ARE ONE!"

Rasa: So I got through to him? My letters pierced his heart? My energy 
went to him?

MOTHER GOD: ALL OF THE ABOVE

Rasa: Will he change, will he receive a lot of power from the anointing?

MOTHER GOD: JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE. YOU WILL HEAR FROM HIM SHORTLY, IN 
ABOUT A WEEK. MARK IT DOWN. HE WILL BEGIN TO NOTICE CHANGES IN HIMSELF, 
THAT'S WHEN HE'LL START WRITING YOU. HE WILL AMAZE HIMSELF THAT HE IS 
WRITING YOU, IT WILL BE A COMPULSION, JUST LIKE IN YOUR DIANA STORY.

Rasa: Wow Mother God! I can't wait! Are we having great success?

MOTHER GOD: EVERYTHING YOU TOUCH, IN TIME, WILL BEAR FRUIT. EVERYTHING.
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DREAM CONCERNING DA MAN: 9 25 08

I am living in a white mansion on the edge of a forest, very beautiful. The 
back yard is enclosed, so that the yard is round, surrounded by forest with 
a good brush, very green.
Back here on the lawn I am cavorting, playing with a white male. He is on 
the grass and I am on top of him, but he goes too far and I am annoyed at 
him although he's a friend.
Around us is food, as it seems I brought food out of the house and it is all 
around us on the lawn. It's not a huge amount, just here and there. I 
somehow keep thinking of m'm's, which are in all colors.

Now while having fun, we hear a rustle in the grass to the left, and we know 
it could be a grizzly bear, because they are around here. We are terrified. 
The man, myself, and my small daughter, all run into the house as quickly as 
possible, locking doors behind us. There seem to be two porches in front of 
the back of the house, we fail to look the outer porch, but we do lock the 
inner porch, and after that, regular doors, which hopefully are stronger 
than the more fragile porch doors - as grizzly's can break open a door 
easily.
The grizzly bear appears, and it's big and powerful.
I am way up on the second or third floor of the house looking down. He 
smelled our food and sweets, apparently, and wanted some.
I hear a chain, and looking down more carefully, realize that the grizzly is 
controlled by a male, who has a collar on him and is holding him by a chain, 
and has complete control over him. The male isn't worried at all, just 
standing there to the right of him, holding the chain, a few feet from him, 
and the grizzly obeys.
Mr. Grizzly got onto the front porch, which means, wow, very close for 
comfort - we were all really scared of him but seeing he is under control by 
the main, he is trained, we are not so worried.
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ANALYSIS
THIS DREAM IS ABOUT DA MAN, HE IS THE GRIZZLY BEAR.
Rasa: What is this dream saying? The white man is my new friend, the 
"Viking God" I've been talking to. The sweets are the sweet nothings or 
sexy somethings, we mostly discuss. Now the Grizzly Bear is Da Man, who 
senses the sweet nourishment, and he comes out because he wants to be 
nourished. Why is he a Grizzly and why are we so afraid of him?

MOTHER GOD: TO SHOW THAT HE IS VERY POWERFUL, BUT MUCH IN NEED OF 
SPIRITUAL/ MATERNAL SEXY ENERGY OR LOVE SUCH AS YOU HAVE BEEN GIVING YOUR 
VIKING. HE IS HUNGRY FOR LOVE. BUT HE IS SUFFERING. THE FACT THAT HE IS 
COLLARED AND CHAINED BY A WHITE MALE, IS THE RULE OF THE WHITE ALPHA MALE, 
WHO KEEPS THIS AND OTHER POWERFUL BLACK MALES UNDER CONTROL, BY THE TENETS 
OF THE PATRIARCHAL STRUCTURE, WHERE BLACK MALES ARE DISCRIMINATED AGAINST.
ALL THE FEAR YOU FEEL IS THE TRADITIONAL FEAR OF WHITES TOWARD BLACKS, 
BECAUSE OF THE STRENGTH YOU SENSE FROM THEM AND THE 'WILDNESS' WHICH IS 
BEING CLOSE TO INSTINCTS. BUT IN PARTICULAR, THIS INDIVIDUAL IS EXTREMELY 
STRONG, GREAT POWER IS HERE.

Rasa: Anything else, Mother?

MOTHER GOD: YOU ARE IN A VERY HAPPY PLACE HERE IN THIS MANSION. YOU ARE 
LIVING IN LUXURY, THE LUXURY OF BEING FREE TO DO AS YOU WISH, SO YOU ARE 
CAVORTING WITH YUMMY MALES.
THE 'M & M' CANDY IS ABOUT ALL THE YUMMY MMMMMMMMMMM LETTERS YOU SEND OUT 
TO YUMMY MALES, ALL THE CANDIES, THE INDICATIONS OF HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM, 
ESPECIALLY TO THE DARKER MALES, BUT NOW TARGETING THIS SEXY WHITE MALE YOU 
ARE TALKING TO. DA MAN WANTS SOME OF THIS, HE IS HERE AT YOUR DOORSTEP, BUT 
HE CANNOT GO FARTHER AS HE IS FETTERED, THIS DREAM SAYS, BY WHAT ALPHA WHITE 
RULE IS DOING TO HIM.

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SOME THESES FOR A DATING SERVICE:

A little about me...

A Cougar is a love huntress looking for males younger than she is This is 
Woman of the Future as females become more affluent, aggressive & no longer 
pursue males for material sustenance but rather body pleasure, companionship 
and comfort services Women will be free to choose males for their beauty and 
sex appeal, a luxury they could ill afford in former times The males are now 
looked upon for their sensuality; such women are emerging rather quickly 
today

What are you looking for in a partner?

If you desire Goddess be a God; a NUBIAN HOTTIE or MACHO BABE-strong and 
hard-generous masculine jewels A Goddess radiates the Feminine Divine-She 
knows where her Power comes from-As we recline in the moss Mother Nature has 
provided- we know we are different-but when we get up-we have become ONE-if 
only for a night-Something Sublime has happened-the memory lasts forever 
Once upon a time we had Matriarchy-the Mothers knew how to take care of 
progeny-boys & men-but Patriarchy messed with instincts & Mother Rule 
tradition which handed wisdom down thru generations- Now this is all coming 
back & we are gathering our men & boys once again to our Bosoms to teach 
them what Mother Rule is all about-we claim them as our Sexy Boy/Men-the 
rule of the "Alpha Male" has ended-he's history-out with the 
dinosaurs-Mother Knows Best

I'd just like to add...

Goddess Diana stands in the forest silently A beautiful stag-fulfilling his 
instincts-emerges- enters the light of a clearing over the valley He 
glistens-muscles twitch with anticipation of conflict & reward-as he'll 
fight others for a harem-protect & breed them He's ready Diana's also 
ready-& removes a special arrow from her quiver-aims it at the beauty, & 
just as She releases it-he notices that he's a target-too late to run He 
feels a warm glow-not hurt- a compulsion to go to this huntress-the need to 
kneel into the waiting moss where She reclined-& put his head into her lap 
She strokes him-noticing the powerful antlers covered with softest velvet 
The antlers are a sign of his manhood which She loves He's not used to being 
docile-but her power overwhelms him & he submits-filling an earthly need 
they both have Diana is from Heaven-but she inhabits a body which only he 
can satisfy-& in their intercourse he receives more than he gives-for when 
he gets up from the tryst-he is charged with extra energy-he'll conquer the 
valley & become its King-Diana has transmitted the shakti to him-the power 
of the Feminine Divine-a supernatural charge that will expand him beyond his 
body-& now-he can face anything

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NEW BLOG!!!

MY DARLING MICHAEL HAS BUILT ME A BLOG - EXACTLY WHAT I WANT AND NEED - TO 
ARCHIVE OUR NEWSLETTERS. ..HE HAD A FANTASTIC DREAM, PLEASE READ IT (will 
give info. on the blog when he is satisfied with it, it looks great, he did 
it all in one day but wants to polish it up!)

DEAREST MOTHER,

IT MAKES ME FEEL VERY GOOD THAT YOU ARE PLEASED. THE BLOG IS JUST BEGINNING 
AND i WILL BE ADDING MUCH TO IT AS I THINK OF THINGS YOU NEED FOR IT. IF 
THERE IS ANYTHING YOU ARE THINKING OF FOR IT JUST TELL ME AND I WILL DO IT.

MY DREAM:

I WAS LOST IN A FOREST AND WAS FINDING NO WAY OUT. I WAS VERY ALONE AND FELT 
VERY VERY WEAK AND VERY ILL. AT ONE TIME I WAS JUST SITTING DOWN BECAUSE I 
WAS FEELING I WAS ABLE TO GO NO FURTHER. I FELT VERY FUZZY IN MY HEAD AND 
THEN I HEARD A LADY'S VOICE SAY " ARE YOU READY NOW TO BE OBEDIENT?" I WAS 
THEN ASKING WHAT SHE MEANT SINCE I DIDN'T KNOW. AND SHE WAS THEN ASKING ME 
THE SAME AGAIN BUT STILL I WAS KNOWING WHAT SHE MEANT. AND THEN SUDDENLY A 
PICTURE OF YOU MOTHER RASA CAME INTO MY HEAD AND I WAS KNOWING WHAT SHE 
MEANT. I BEGAN TO CRY AS I WAS SO TIRED WEAK AND ALONE.

SHE STRETCHED HER HAND TO ME " COME IT IS TIME." SHE WAS LEADING ME TO A 
VERY LARGE WHITE BUILDING LIKE A CHURCH AND TOLD ME "COME INSIDE SHE IS 
WAITING FOR YOU".

SHE LED ME IN AND ON A HIGH THRONE YOU SAT DRESSED ALL IN WHITE AND SMILED 
AT ME. I WAS FEELING SO WEAK SAD AND HAPPY ALL AT THE SAME TIME. YOU WERE 
BECKONING ME AND I FELL AT YOUR FEET. YOU WERE LIFTING MY CHIN AND WERE 
LOOKING DEEP IN MY EYES. YOU WERE TALKING SOFTLY TO ME BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT 
YOU SAID HOWEVER I WAS FEELING BETTER AND BETTER, CALMER AND CALMER TILL ALL 
BAD FEELING WAS COMPLETELY GONE FROM MY BODY.

THE OTHER LADY WAS PUTTING LIGHT BRACELETS ON MY WRIST AND ANKLES. ATTACHED 
TO THESE WERE VERY LIGHT SILK THREADS WHICH YOU WERE HOLDING IN YOUR HAND. 
THE LADY WAS SAYING THESE WILL NEVER BREAK, EVER. SHE SAYS "I AM PLACING YOU 
UNDER THE CHARGE OF YOUR MOTHERRASA AGAIN AND SO YOU MUST ALWAYS STAY WITH 
HER. YOUR PLACE NOW AND FOREVER IS TO SERVE AND OBEY HER AND DO ALL SHE SAYS 
TO BRING THE RULE OF MOTHERRASA/GOD ON EARTH. IF THIS IS TAKING ALL YOUR 
LIFE THEN IT MUST BE SO. FROM NOW MOTHERRASA WILL DIRECT YOU IN ALL THINGS 
AS I MOTHERGOD WILL IT!!"

IT WAS CLEAR TO ME THAT MOTHERGOD WAS BINDING ME TO YOU AND THAT MY 
DISOBEDIENCE TO YOU WAS NOW OVER AND WOULD NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN.

I FELT VERY VERY GOOD AND WAS KNOWING NOW FINALLY MY PURPOSE IN LIFE AND 
UNDERSTAND WHAT OBEDIENCE TO GOD MEANS.

SHE WAS ALSO SAYING THAT NOW MOTHERRASA WOULD HAVE BOTH SPIRITUAL AND 
PHYSICAL CONTROL BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS.

YOUR OBEDIENT SON,

MICHAEL