Important Experience Concerning Someone I Love from Afar - Metaphysical/
Spiritual Union Occurred
RASA SEX/LOVE REPORT 9 28 08
(1) I become ONE with a Sensuous Nubian God (2) I join a new dating
service (3) Michael has a Big Dream, he starts a Blog I've been wishing
for! To archive our Precious Newsletters SO SEARCH ENGINES CAN READ OUR
OK as all of you know I am looking for Yummy males, most of whom are dark,
and I am a fussy bitch so I look through hundreds of images before I find
My collection is the most beautiful and sensuous males I can find, they are
all 10's and 12's even, they are over the top. I try to get to know them,
but it ain't easy, as guys like that must be in great demand.
I pride myself for the fact that some of them answer, we exchange steamy
fantasies, I did snag two recently and am making plans with several others.
I don't get all that I want immediately - hey win a few lose a few, easy
cum, easy go, easy cum. For every one I lose, more show up, it never ends.
I console myself with the memory that when I was in my 20's I had perhaps
EVEN MORE hardships, rejections and broken heart than I do now, I knew
little in those days, my taste was not as good, I could not control the guys
like I do now, and often chose the wrong ones entirely, did not know how to
deal with relationships like I do now. My track record is I am probably
batting 1,000 in spite of my age, am doing very well indeed for an "old fox"
who is "naughty but nice."
Recently I came upon one that is so magnificent that he erased the other
ones from my mind, you know, like a bright light that eclipses all the other
lights? I am sure he "don't know what he's got" because how could he look at
himself objectively? I am the one who is seeing him as compared with say a
thousand other guys who are good looking - but right now, he has beat them
all, even though the others are formidable. My collection you could say is
the International Olympics of the "Masculine Babes." They are all absolute
tops in the world, but like only one gets the Three Gold Medals.
I do tend to "get into" my work and projects, and on the night of Sept. 25,
as I lay in my bed, I was composing the tome to my macho hunk, and thinking
what I could write to get him my way. I had tried three angles with mixed
success, the best one got a mental response, I heard him say,
It's a start.
In this mind walk I asked Da Man a host of questions. It went like this:
"What do I have to do to get through the Iron Doors between us?"
(1) Is there an Iron Door of fear like who is this stranger?
(2) Is there an Iron Door that you are in a relationship
(3) Is there an Iron Door that says "I am a Gigolo, you have to
(4) Is there an Iron Door that says, "You are white, I don't like white
(5) Is there an Iron Door of distance, that says "you are too far away to
I envisioned myself pushing aside the Iron Doors between us, seeing them
thick and huge, but I face the problems. I went over this again and again,
including the Gigolo part, trying to figure what I would have to pay him,
having the fear he'll demand a Ferrari.
Desperate women do desperate things. I quickly evaluated economics, what
price for a "night of sin", what I could humiliate myself to do for what I
wanted, and could I actually enjoy a sensual act I had to pay for - in case
I could, what would be the rate for a Living Doll in these days of
inflation? Like a half week or full week salary? (haha babe, the dollar has
lost 40% of its value since 2001 or something like that so as the cock
rises, cost rises). All this went through my mind again and again.
I went to sleep for a couple hours. Then I awoke, and I heard a nebulous
voice, in my head, not audibly. This voice called out to me,
It was like the voice was suspended in space, but within this earth, sort of
surrounded by white blankets specked with green spots, and I had to answer
it, and I did answer it, not even knowing who was calling me,
"YES? WHAT IS IT?"
As soon as I answered I "made contact" in the following way, and it was
fascinating and mysterious.
The voice, which I saw suspended above the earth, surrounded by thick
blankets, kind of like clouds, specked with green, turned into an area
surrounded by black, with nothingness around it, the Presence of the person
calling me "Mamma" was inside the Center of this Blackness, a Secret place,
a Sanctum Sanctorum, I suspect, the Epicenter of this human Being reaching
out to me.
As I perceived this New Reality or Vision of this Person, he spoke to me
"I AM IN YOU, YOU ARE IN ME, WE ARE ONE."
I became curious as to who this man was - even though I could not picture
his voice I knew he was a man - and it was shown to me it was Da Man I was
"in love" with - how ASTOUNDING!
He further explained to me the following:
"I need the kind and gentle love of a Mother...I have no teeth" (he is
therefore an infant before the first set of teeth move in, he is nursing or
drinking from a bottle.)
There was not much TALK after that, but the POWER of this contact was
SUBLIME, the REALITY of UNION with this man, where he and I became ONE - He
being the Child, myself the Mother, like REBIRTHING. I became his new
Mother - in a series of contact BY LETTER ONLY with a man who did not even
reach out to me or respond, except for when I heard him say "fuck you." And
yet, the letters I wrote reached his heart and mind, touched him, enough
that he CALLED OUT TO ME, I answered, and the moment I answered, WE BECAME
THIS WAS BETTER THAN SEX. In sex, frequently, the hearts, minds and souls
do not unite, if but a tiny bit, the usual being lots of body touch, not so
much anything else, however good it feels, you do not become completely ONE.
This UNION was PERFECT as we did become One, and so, it was BETTER THAN SEX.
I WAS EXHILARATED, basking in the joy of being One with this man I love, it
He said, as a parting shot,
"Good luck in your hunting."
This statement goes with my profile, where the thesis I wrote goes "Diana,
the Goddess of the hunt and love, looking to pierce the stag" I.E., the
older powerful woman looking for the beautiful young male.
Then this was said,
"If we do not meet on earth, I will see you in Heaven."
Now I must tell you the two e mails that "got through" to him. There were
half a dozen sent, went unread, but these two were read.
The first was flippant, declaring that "I am your new Mamma" and I spoke in
no uncertain terms how I would dominate him - raunchy stuff, very
aggressive. This hit a nerve, and when I heard from him the "fuck you."
Now the next one also that he did read (my service lets me know which ones
are read) went like this and I think this is even further significance of
how I did get through to him (this was sent to 50 males on my dating
THE IMPORTANCE OF SKIN
"BEAUTY IS ONLY SKIN DEEP"...RIGHT NOW I'M THINKING OF DARK SKIN, IF YOU CAN
"PASS FOR WHITE" THEN YOU CAN'T TURN ME ON - BE MOCHA, COFFEE WITH CREAM,
EBONY, ANYTHING BUT WHITE....I WANT THAT SKIN AGAINST MINE, PERSONAL CONTACT
IS WHAT I NEED. I WANT TO FEEL IT, SMELL IT, TASTE IT.
THEY SAY "LOOK AT THE CHARACTER-LOOK INSIDE" BUT RIGHT NOW I'M NOT GIVING IQ
TESTS, NOR LOOKING FOR DEACONS IN MY CHURCH, THIS IS EMOTIONAL HUNGER.
"DON'T LOOK FOR JUST SEX" WHAT IS "SEX?" THE ABILITY TO TOUCH ONE ANOTHER
DECIDES IF WE'LL BE HAPPY OR DEPRESSED, RELAXED OR ANXIOUS, COMMIT SUICIDE
OR KEEP LIVING, NEED DRUGS/ ALCOHOL OR NOT. SERATONIN, OXYTOCIN, ARE "FEEL
GOOD" HORMONES THAT GET ACTIVATED AT CERTAIN TIMES, INCLUDING TIMES OF PAIN
& PLEASURE. WE NEED STIMULATION THROUGH TOUCH...SOMETIMES WE DON'T TOUCH
PHYSICALLY, BUT TALKING, LOOKING, IS A "REMOTE TOUCH", IT HELPS. SOLITARY
CONFINEMENT IS TORTURE...THAT' S WHAT LETTERS, IMAGE EXCHANGE & WEBCAMS ARE
FOR...SEND IMAGES OF BEAUTIFUL YOU TO:
In these two letters, in the first, where I purport to be his "New Mamma"
and dominating him psychologically, I establish what kind of a woman I am -
not a passive woman, but one who appears more Maternal, albeit aggressively
maternal. This hits a nerve, but it gets through - which is important. If
you hit a nerve, you're in.
But the next letter is compassionate and explanatory, speaking of EMOTIONAL
HUNGER, the touch, smell, taste that one gets FROM MOTHER IN THE NUTRITIONAL
BOND and the RESULTS OF THE LACK OF SUCH BONDING, THE EMOTIONAL HUNGER, THE
RESULTS OF EMOTIONAL HUNGER OUTLINED WITH ITS DIRE CONSEQUENCES!
This has been an extremely successful letter I bandied about, but I knew it
to be of quality, explaining much in the realm of emotions, something we are
all a part of on dating services.
Now I will interview Mother God, the Power within me, as to the meaning and
substance of this vision:
Rasa: Mother God, please tell me in plain and simple terms what happened
MOTHER GOD: HE CALLED OUT TO YOU AS A MOTHER, HE WANTED YOU. HE SUBMITTED,
JUST AS A DEVOTEE DOES TO HIS GURU. THE DEVOTEE/ GURU RELATIONSHIP IS A
CHILD/ PARENT ONE, IT IS THE SAME THING, REALLY. IT IS BASED ON THE
MATERNAL/ CHILD BOND. HE WAS ABLE TO DISCERN THAT YOU ARE A POWERFUL
SUPERNATURAL FORCE AS WELL AS A PHYSICAL PRESENCE. HE READ THE PROFILE, THE
THING ABOUT DIANA. THERE YOU EXPLAIN THE SUPERNATURAL EXCHANGE, THE SHAKTI,
THE HUNTING FOR THE BEAUTIFUL MALE.
HE UNDERSTOOD IT. HE UNDERSTOOD, AND HE SUBMITTED.
Rasa: The "I have no teeth" gives me his age, but is there any more
detailed explanation of why this is given me?
MOTHER GOD: HE WANTS YOU TO KNOW HE IS AN INFANT, VERY SMALL - THIS IS HIS
POINT OF SUBMISSION OR NEED, HE HAS REDUCED HIMSELF, MADE HIMSELF SMALL OR
GONE BACK INTO HIS INFANCY TO CALL YOU TO HIM AT THIS POINT. IT'S LIKE
"MOTHER, IT IS HERE THAT I CALL UPON YOU, HERE IS MY NEED. I AM VERY SMALL,
NOT WEANED, BE MY MOTHER HERE, COME TO ME HERE, RECEIVE ME HERE, IN FACT, IT'S
ALREADY DONE. YOU ARE IN ME, I AM IN YOU, WE ARE ONE!"
Rasa: So I got through to him? My letters pierced his heart? My energy
went to him?
MOTHER GOD: ALL OF THE ABOVE
Rasa: Will he change, will he receive a lot of power from the anointing?
MOTHER GOD: JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE. YOU WILL HEAR FROM HIM SHORTLY, IN
ABOUT A WEEK. MARK IT DOWN. HE WILL BEGIN TO NOTICE CHANGES IN HIMSELF,
THAT'S WHEN HE'LL START WRITING YOU. HE WILL AMAZE HIMSELF THAT HE IS
WRITING YOU, IT WILL BE A COMPULSION, JUST LIKE IN YOUR DIANA STORY.
Rasa: Wow Mother God! I can't wait! Are we having great success?
MOTHER GOD: EVERYTHING YOU TOUCH, IN TIME, WILL BEAR FRUIT. EVERYTHING.
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DREAM CONCERNING DA MAN: 9 25 08
I am living in a white mansion on the edge of a forest, very beautiful. The
back yard is enclosed, so that the yard is round, surrounded by forest with
a good brush, very green.
Back here on the lawn I am cavorting, playing with a white male. He is on
the grass and I am on top of him, but he goes too far and I am annoyed at
him although he's a friend.
Around us is food, as it seems I brought food out of the house and it is all
around us on the lawn. It's not a huge amount, just here and there. I
somehow keep thinking of m'm's, which are in all colors.
Now while having fun, we hear a rustle in the grass to the left, and we know
it could be a grizzly bear, because they are around here. We are terrified.
The man, myself, and my small daughter, all run into the house as quickly as
possible, locking doors behind us. There seem to be two porches in front of
the back of the house, we fail to look the outer porch, but we do lock the
inner porch, and after that, regular doors, which hopefully are stronger
than the more fragile porch doors - as grizzly's can break open a door
The grizzly bear appears, and it's big and powerful.
I am way up on the second or third floor of the house looking down. He
smelled our food and sweets, apparently, and wanted some.
I hear a chain, and looking down more carefully, realize that the grizzly is
controlled by a male, who has a collar on him and is holding him by a chain,
and has complete control over him. The male isn't worried at all, just
standing there to the right of him, holding the chain, a few feet from him,
and the grizzly obeys.
Mr. Grizzly got onto the front porch, which means, wow, very close for
comfort - we were all really scared of him but seeing he is under control by
the main, he is trained, we are not so worried.
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THIS DREAM IS ABOUT DA MAN, HE IS THE GRIZZLY BEAR.
Rasa: What is this dream saying? The white man is my new friend, the
"Viking God" I've been talking to. The sweets are the sweet nothings or
sexy somethings, we mostly discuss. Now the Grizzly Bear is Da Man, who
senses the sweet nourishment, and he comes out because he wants to be
nourished. Why is he a Grizzly and why are we so afraid of him?
MOTHER GOD: TO SHOW THAT HE IS VERY POWERFUL, BUT MUCH IN NEED OF
SPIRITUAL/ MATERNAL SEXY ENERGY OR LOVE SUCH AS YOU HAVE BEEN GIVING YOUR
VIKING. HE IS HUNGRY FOR LOVE. BUT HE IS SUFFERING. THE FACT THAT HE IS
COLLARED AND CHAINED BY A WHITE MALE, IS THE RULE OF THE WHITE ALPHA MALE,
WHO KEEPS THIS AND OTHER POWERFUL BLACK MALES UNDER CONTROL, BY THE TENETS
OF THE PATRIARCHAL STRUCTURE, WHERE BLACK MALES ARE DISCRIMINATED AGAINST.
ALL THE FEAR YOU FEEL IS THE TRADITIONAL FEAR OF WHITES TOWARD BLACKS,
BECAUSE OF THE STRENGTH YOU SENSE FROM THEM AND THE 'WILDNESS' WHICH IS
BEING CLOSE TO INSTINCTS. BUT IN PARTICULAR, THIS INDIVIDUAL IS EXTREMELY
STRONG, GREAT POWER IS HERE.
Rasa: Anything else, Mother?
MOTHER GOD: YOU ARE IN A VERY HAPPY PLACE HERE IN THIS MANSION. YOU ARE
LIVING IN LUXURY, THE LUXURY OF BEING FREE TO DO AS YOU WISH, SO YOU ARE
CAVORTING WITH YUMMY MALES.
THE 'M & M' CANDY IS ABOUT ALL THE YUMMY MMMMMMMMMMM LETTERS YOU SEND OUT
TO YUMMY MALES, ALL THE CANDIES, THE INDICATIONS OF HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM,
ESPECIALLY TO THE DARKER MALES, BUT NOW TARGETING THIS SEXY WHITE MALE YOU
ARE TALKING TO. DA MAN WANTS SOME OF THIS, HE IS HERE AT YOUR DOORSTEP, BUT
HE CANNOT GO FARTHER AS HE IS FETTERED, THIS DREAM SAYS, BY WHAT ALPHA WHITE
RULE IS DOING TO HIM.
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SOME THESES FOR A DATING SERVICE:
A little about me...
A Cougar is a love huntress looking for males younger than she is This is
Woman of the Future as females become more affluent, aggressive & no longer
pursue males for material sustenance but rather body pleasure, companionship
and comfort services Women will be free to choose males for their beauty and
sex appeal, a luxury they could ill afford in former times The males are now
looked upon for their sensuality; such women are emerging rather quickly
What are you looking for in a partner?
If you desire Goddess be a God; a NUBIAN HOTTIE or MACHO BABE-strong and
hard-generous masculine jewels A Goddess radiates the Feminine Divine-She
knows where her Power comes from-As we recline in the moss Mother Nature has
provided- we know we are different-but when we get up-we have become ONE-if
only for a night-Something Sublime has happened-the memory lasts forever
Once upon a time we had Matriarchy-the Mothers knew how to take care of
progeny-boys & men-but Patriarchy messed with instincts & Mother Rule
tradition which handed wisdom down thru generations- Now this is all coming
back & we are gathering our men & boys once again to our Bosoms to teach
them what Mother Rule is all about-we claim them as our Sexy Boy/Men-the
rule of the "Alpha Male" has ended-he's history-out with the
dinosaurs-Mother Knows Best
I'd just like to add...
Goddess Diana stands in the forest silently A beautiful stag-fulfilling his
instincts-emerges- enters the light of a clearing over the valley He
glistens-muscles twitch with anticipation of conflict & reward-as he'll
fight others for a harem-protect & breed them He's ready Diana's also
ready-& removes a special arrow from her quiver-aims it at the beauty, &
just as She releases it-he notices that he's a target-too late to run He
feels a warm glow-not hurt- a compulsion to go to this huntress-the need to
kneel into the waiting moss where She reclined-& put his head into her lap
She strokes him-noticing the powerful antlers covered with softest velvet
The antlers are a sign of his manhood which She loves He's not used to being
docile-but her power overwhelms him & he submits-filling an earthly need
they both have Diana is from Heaven-but she inhabits a body which only he
can satisfy-& in their intercourse he receives more than he gives-for when
he gets up from the tryst-he is charged with extra energy-he'll conquer the
valley & become its King-Diana has transmitted the shakti to him-the power
of the Feminine Divine-a supernatural charge that will expand him beyond his
body-& now-he can face anything
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MY DARLING MICHAEL HAS BUILT ME A BLOG - EXACTLY WHAT I WANT AND NEED - TO
ARCHIVE OUR NEWSLETTERS. ..HE HAD A FANTASTIC DREAM, PLEASE READ IT (will
give info. on the blog when he is satisfied with it, it looks great, he did
it all in one day but wants to polish it up!)
IT MAKES ME FEEL VERY GOOD THAT YOU ARE PLEASED. THE BLOG IS JUST BEGINNING
AND i WILL BE ADDING MUCH TO IT AS I THINK OF THINGS YOU NEED FOR IT. IF
THERE IS ANYTHING YOU ARE THINKING OF FOR IT JUST TELL ME AND I WILL DO IT.
I WAS LOST IN A FOREST AND WAS FINDING NO WAY OUT. I WAS VERY ALONE AND FELT
VERY VERY WEAK AND VERY ILL. AT ONE TIME I WAS JUST SITTING DOWN BECAUSE I
WAS FEELING I WAS ABLE TO GO NO FURTHER. I FELT VERY FUZZY IN MY HEAD AND
THEN I HEARD A LADY'S VOICE SAY " ARE YOU READY NOW TO BE OBEDIENT?" I WAS
THEN ASKING WHAT SHE MEANT SINCE I DIDN'T KNOW. AND SHE WAS THEN ASKING ME
THE SAME AGAIN BUT STILL I WAS KNOWING WHAT SHE MEANT. AND THEN SUDDENLY A
PICTURE OF YOU MOTHER RASA CAME INTO MY HEAD AND I WAS KNOWING WHAT SHE
MEANT. I BEGAN TO CRY AS I WAS SO TIRED WEAK AND ALONE.
SHE STRETCHED HER HAND TO ME " COME IT IS TIME." SHE WAS LEADING ME TO A
VERY LARGE WHITE BUILDING LIKE A CHURCH AND TOLD ME "COME INSIDE SHE IS
WAITING FOR YOU".
SHE LED ME IN AND ON A HIGH THRONE YOU SAT DRESSED ALL IN WHITE AND SMILED
AT ME. I WAS FEELING SO WEAK SAD AND HAPPY ALL AT THE SAME TIME. YOU WERE
BECKONING ME AND I FELL AT YOUR FEET. YOU WERE LIFTING MY CHIN AND WERE
LOOKING DEEP IN MY EYES. YOU WERE TALKING SOFTLY TO ME BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT
YOU SAID HOWEVER I WAS FEELING BETTER AND BETTER, CALMER AND CALMER TILL ALL
BAD FEELING WAS COMPLETELY GONE FROM MY BODY.
THE OTHER LADY WAS PUTTING LIGHT BRACELETS ON MY WRIST AND ANKLES. ATTACHED
TO THESE WERE VERY LIGHT SILK THREADS WHICH YOU WERE HOLDING IN YOUR HAND.
THE LADY WAS SAYING THESE WILL NEVER BREAK, EVER. SHE SAYS "I AM PLACING YOU
UNDER THE CHARGE OF YOUR MOTHERRASA AGAIN AND SO YOU MUST ALWAYS STAY WITH
HER. YOUR PLACE NOW AND FOREVER IS TO SERVE AND OBEY HER AND DO ALL SHE SAYS
TO BRING THE RULE OF MOTHERRASA/GOD ON EARTH. IF THIS IS TAKING ALL YOUR
LIFE THEN IT MUST BE SO. FROM NOW MOTHERRASA WILL DIRECT YOU IN ALL THINGS
AS I MOTHERGOD WILL IT!!"
IT WAS CLEAR TO ME THAT MOTHERGOD WAS BINDING ME TO YOU AND THAT MY
DISOBEDIENCE TO YOU WAS NOW OVER AND WOULD NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN.
I FELT VERY VERY GOOD AND WAS KNOWING NOW FINALLY MY PURPOSE IN LIFE AND
UNDERSTAND WHAT OBEDIENCE TO GOD MEANS.
SHE WAS ALSO SAYING THAT NOW MOTHERRASA WOULD HAVE BOTH SPIRITUAL AND
PHYSICAL CONTROL BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS.
YOUR OBEDIENT SON,